WRITING


  • Why those that teach “two genders” inspire me a lot.

    This is the best use of the internet in my opinion. I closed my youtube to the public because people were recommending me things by people, who i was already familiar with what their function was on earth. It’s not just an insult to me to try to open a discussion on topics ive studied…

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  • On knowing myself

    As a point of survival, and to distinguish me from surroundings or internal thoughts that are useless or detrimental, I’m constantly stepping outside myself, and re-evaluating, making mental note of whatever i notice about myself. Sorting what’s important to me eventually becomes “what’s relevant to this personal process I have grown” and then that becomes…

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  • Leaving Period of Gnosis Where it Is, and Just Remaining Honest to Myself.

    I make this blog post on the back of winning a battle against being legally titled schizophrenic. I now lay down the title I adopted as a shield against your title of schizophrenia. Gnostic. First I explain why Gnostic was relevant. Post enlightenment and pre-pain, pre-fever of the start of this month, I had experiences,…

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  • On Getting Talked At, Never WITH. (Almost Always, Not Always Bad)

    I definitely notice that anyone who wants a conversation with me most of my life it’s usually 9/10 times just to talk at me, swaying something they seem to perceive in me a little bit. Usually the fun sort is to a mutual area of interest. These are the best conversations and I will absolutely…

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  • What i might write if I was 5 and still believed

    Trust me, I’ve always been a crazy boi “Dear Santa, thank you so much for all your gifts, you know i appreciate such things so much it excels fetish and become genuinely sacred. Some day, (and don’t be mean about this) at the right time, at the right place (you’ll know, be honest and trust…

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  • Why the current year is numbered that way

    Option A) Read a book by a modern author considered “monumenal”, in the sort of way Jordan Peterson, Sam Harris, Christopher Hitchens or Vox Day.Option B) Observe the disunity among their readers who found a point in life their books and exhault them and author. Worry a bit, and despair.Summary: Vessels of authors above giving…

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  • Friday 5th July: Health and clarity of mind on decline.

    Yes, I am still captive (in a very literal sense), within the walls of a psychiatric unit.  I won’t complain, but of course i would earnestsly love some of my friends to visit. It’s been too long, and that, is even true for the days i haven’t been here, in hospital as well. It’s a…

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  • My Hospital Prayer

    Dear Father God in Heaven, Deliver me from the walls of this hospital, The ineptitude of the staff and impotency of their assistance, From their inability to provide: Health to my body, Aid to my mind, Or comfort to my soul. May you provide help to them to see their error, In judgement, And in…

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  • Neurodivergent

    I’m neurodivergent, Ask a surgeon! They’ll have no idea why! They’ll split open my skull, And out will fly, A moth, I think you’ll find. – Bretheren before me, Angels in the sky, Promote the surgeon, To a sergent, Don’t bloody ask me why! – I come out with autism, When mother pinned me to…

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  • Discipline

    Unitl today and beyond today, i shall hold fast to my loyalty, my faith, my convictions, and as best I can to my honor. Having had a sense of deja vu throughout my life, including this moment, where I lay on a ward bed I was in, 13 years ago, I remember not SPEAKING MORE…

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  • You Won’t Rape The Sacrosact from Me

    I’m writing this from hospital. I was put in here a good few days ago, maybe close to two weeks. I won’t linger on the details, but I’ve learned enough over the years to say, the doctors aren’t my friends. I’ve made my views extremely clear on this matter over the years so to deliberate…

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  • Evelyn’s nature and proclivities.

    It seemed onesided at first. That’s all im saying, because the title was what was so rich about all interactions and gifts and potentials. Unmade decisons speak loudly about core nature.

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